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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2007|12:06 am]
Kietz :)
I never post, but this is worth it...

Tonight I finished book 20 of 2007. I have reached my goal and it is cake frome here.

Off to begin #21...
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(no subject) [Jul. 13th, 2007|12:56 pm]
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It has in fact come down to this.

My spirituality over the past year is not even something I can get into at this moment, and as I am approaching the turning point (my hire date of July 27th) I have had to take a very elementary approach to it all.

I choose a Psalm the night before and go ahead and record which one and the date on a very small piece of paper in a journal. The wide rule stance and dimensions of the journal put my Mead Five Star college rule to shame.

And then I read that one Psalm the next night and read and reflect. I write messy and quickly. But I write. I might have read more in the last three days (this is very new) than I have in three months.

I feel shamed. Maybe that’s what it comes down to.

Last night was Psalm 103. And this struck me.

“Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits—who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle.” Psalm 103:2-5

Here’s what GOD does: forgives, heals, redeems, crowns, and satisfies. I feel like the order is so significant. And not in a way that I can really nail down with a three point sermon and an altar call at the end. I just know that step one is to be forgiven. And then let Him heal you so that He can redeem you. Crowning…like the becoming a daughter of the King in a non-Christian bookstore teen girl propaganda way. And then being satisfied.

I crave being satisfied. And though teaching has drastically altered my life especially spiritual life, summer has brought me to little moments of being satisfied. All very elementary but you know? Finishing a book, sunshine, hot coffee, learning, running.

And here’s where real life hits God: if you aren’t striving does that mean you are satisfied? Or does it mean if you are striving you are not satisfied?

It’s like going running after not doing it for a while. Asking these questions are like stretching and it feels a little awkward, but it feels good to ask such questions and not know the answers.

Mostly because it feels more like me.
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(no subject) [May. 27th, 2007|06:34 pm]
Kietz :)
"Your overall performance as a first year teacher has been truly exceptional. You consistenly provided innovative, engaging, performance based insturction. You formed solid connections with your students, leading them to high levels of performance. You planned collaboratively with your peers to unpack standards and develop perfomance based units of instruction. You use varied formal and infomal assessments. SIP [School Improvement Plan] goals were fully integrated in your lessons. You continued to develop professionaly by participating the variety of SIP based staff development sessions offered. Your hard work as payed off. You have a solid foundation for success in your continued professional development as a teacher. Overall Performance Rating: Exceeds Standards"

It is finished. After the whole staff finished waving at the buses...a JJ tradition...I was standing between Laura and Leigh and all I could say to them was, "Hell yeah look at me! I made it!"

Not only did I make it, apparently I don't completely suck at my job. : )

More to come later...
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(no subject) [Apr. 13th, 2007|11:36 pm]
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One of my favorite kids the other day...ready for this convo?

Susana: "Miss Kietzman, did you get a lot of sleep last night?"
Me: "Um...not really. Why?"
Susana: "You have some really dark circles under your eyes."
Me: "Awesome. Everyone! Look over here! Apparently...Miss Kietzman looks terrible today! Wanna check it out?"

I asked her again today and she said that I haven't changed. She told me to get some make up. I tol her I look ridiculous with cosmetics on to which she countered, "If you never show us, how can we decide if you look ridiculous?" I have looked a hella mess this week. Hella mess.

Here's to getting some sleep this weekend.
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(no subject) [Apr. 10th, 2007|10:18 pm]
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Do you ever wonder if one day we'll grow old and the "change the world" mentality won't matter anymore? Or is it one of those "once a dreamer, always a dreamer"? I really hope it is option 2.

I heard a talk tonight at 7|22 about human trafficking and...I saw glimpses of my old self. The self I have been longing to see again for quite sometime. The me that strived for so much and believed in changing the world...before the cynacism that ran paralell with teaching. The passionate self...the self that friends say defines me and is such a prevelent part of my personality.

I realized the other day that I was a sheep among wolves with teaching...and I have survived because I have become a sheep in wolves' clothing. How did that happen and when the hell did I become a conformist? I am still mulling and unpacking this on all the levels it should...however...I am a lamb. At my core I am His lamb.


I am and always will be...

A roaring lamb
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(no subject) [Mar. 17th, 2007|10:02 pm]
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Sometimes I pretend that I am a music snob or something.

Like when I go to the kinda indie radio website and then desire to go to about a million shows.

Here's the list so far
- The Killers (I think it sold out, but it's at the Fabulous Fox...how cool would that be?)
- Mat Kearney (I think I am going to try to go to this show...he's great)
- The Fray with Gomez and Eisley opening (possibility)
- Various others where I like one song and would want to try to like many others such as Damien Rice, Augustana, Snow Patrol, Lucinda Williams

Good stuff pals. Back to schoolish stuff...

P.S. The Killers...are...Mormon. Seriously.
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(no subject) [Feb. 10th, 2007|01:13 pm]
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As I live life, I realize that although there are many things about Grey's Anatomy that aren't believable (seriously Izzie after Denny?) there are ways in which it is real.

I was watching today while trying to do some work at school and I love the fact that position in the hospital doesn't necessarily mean that you have it all together. I like that. There are so many ways where the wisest isn't the oldest or the most expereienced and that encouragement can come from unlikely places.

I think I want to be on Grey's Anatomy and I was able to play the part last week. My mother was in ICU last week due to complications/infection after a colonoscopy. She was very sick and my cold caused me to get to wear a mask. My mother is fine now, but last week was scary. The mortality of the parents...so close these days.

Back to work.

"Do you have a problem?" Bailey
"No." Izzie
"Do you have a mocha latte?" Bailey
"No." Izzie
"Then go away." Bailey
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(no subject) [Jan. 4th, 2007|04:34 pm]
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I totally feel like my life has a soundtrack now that I have an iPod. It's completely awesome.
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(no subject) [Dec. 20th, 2006|10:08 pm]
Kietz :)
A child vomited in my classroom today. Seriously.

I need to not see the children anymore. Or at least for about 2 weeks.

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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2006|09:36 pm]
Kietz :)
Long time no post.

Kids wear me out and I lack all social skills that help me to not run away from parties.

I am so ready for break...holy crap.

I'll be in the Vegas over the break...please clear your schedules.

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